If I Should Die Before I Wake

69 eyes

2006-10-15T02:55:17Z

JUSSI 69 from the 69 eyes, is fucking HOTTTTT!!!
sorry im random
-Sam

Email back from Keane

2006-05-25T00:21:59Z

Letter Back:
Keane wrote:
Hi Sweetie,

We read your note and it made both of us feel much better about everything. We didn’t really say much because the kids were in the van and we didn’t want to get into it. You know how much we worry about you and we’d just be wrecks if anything ever happened to you, especially because of someone we brought into your life.

Along with all of that, you need to know how Uncle Steve feels about this whole thing with Jay. To put it succinctly, it is almost as bad as if Joe did something to betray him. He thought of Jay as more than just a business partner, more than just a friend. We made him part of the family and he not only betrayed Steve’s trust, he set out to hurt him. Steve kept trying to make excuses for him, etc. because he had a hard time letting go of the friendship too. He couldn’t believe that Jay could really do those things or intend them the way they came out. That’s why Uncle Steve is so hurt. He has started just pushing people away because he can’t go through that again, especially with his health issues. Whether that’s right or wrong, (and he hates being that way) it’s what he feels he needs to do to protect himself. Talk to him. Don’t let him push you away because of this. He needs to feel that he can trust you otherwise he won’t feel he can have you around, no matter how much he loves you.

I don’t want to upset you more. I know you already feel like crap but you need to know how he’s feeling.

Love you,
Keane

I wrote back just now:
I figured that was the case, which is why I handed you the note.

I know somewhat how Steven felt, beause Jay had expressed how much he loved him and how you guys were family to him long ago. I have noticed he is pushing people away, and I don't want that to happen to us. My relationship with him now, is so incredible. I love both you guys so much, and he's become like a second father. (wow, husband//father//uncle... we live in kentucky i swear) I absoloutely understand that pushing people away thing. I did it a while back, and my father's doing it now. He's protecting himself, from more stress just like Steve, beause he doesn't want to hurt, and especially in Steve's case because of his health. I will talk to him, because I don't want to be pushed away and I don't want to see our relationship fail because of this.

Don't worry about it, as crappy as I feel. I needed to know this.
Love you,
Sammy
So yeah, I sent Steven a text, even tho it's against the rules (they cant text it cost $) I said: I'm sry I know it's against the texting rules but ur at work so here just know that I love you, and I never meant to hurt you I wish I could take it back just know that you can trust me, and I'm sorry.

I'll talk to him more this weekend, but I dont want to be pushed away....

Went to see Blueman Group today in NY with the school, it kicked ass. Details later, I'm gonna go chill for a while, I've been flipping out all day about this email, cause I wasn't home at my normal time to check for it.
♥ Sam

Catching you all up

2006-05-24T01:39:36Z

So here goes, this could get long and complicated
Keane read my text messages... found some from Jay...
So they're not mad... they're concerned... here's what was said in the emails:

- Mad, no… concerned, yes!

It seems you are still “in luv” with Jason and are still in contact with him. If this is the case, both Uncle Steve and I are extremely concerned. He is a very unstable individual, no matter how logical or sane he may seem. He is manipulative and will use you and your emotions for his own goals. I know we haven’t shared everything he did & said with you, so you may not understand why we’re reacting so strongly. It’s not just a matter of wanting him out of our lives. We are truly afraid of what he may do to you.

Could we please talk about this when we’re together? You mean the world to both Uncle Steve and I and you can’t imagine how upset we’d be if you got hurt.

Love you,

Keane

-Okay, I've spent tons of time thinking over this, and I'm gonna admit i still like him cause yeah.. idk it's just that relationship thing we talked about. And I really am mad at myself for still being in conact with him. After things happend I said i would never talk to him ever again, and I'm just really sorry that I did. You're completely right and I just don't know what made me want to stay in contact with him, I guess it was just that letting people go thing. I dont know.. but i guess if you pick me up from work tomorrow we can talk about it more.. I just feel like this entire thing with him sucks, and I really wish I hadn't talked to him. I know how important it is to you guys, and I love you guys a lot..

Sammy

-I know it’s not easy to let people go. I’m the worst offender on that! And he can be very “charming” in his own way. I just know that he doesn’t have your best interests at heart and that scares me.

Let’s definitely talk tomorrow. I’ll pick you up.

Love,

Keane

I'm so nervous because I love them so much, but I dont want my decision on texting him the other day affecxt us.. and I just i dont know what I'm going to do, or say, I may say the wrong thing, and ruin everything... Why do I have to be so attracted to him.. i just i dont understand... my emotions have been ripped around i dont know what to do anymore.. i just dont... im so lost. With him I'm happy, but I know they're right, I know he's manipulative, and in the end probably doesnt have my best interests at heart, and that's what my mind says, he'll fuck you over sam... but my heart's like fuck it, i like him, he makes me smile, he makes me laugh... i just I don't know... and I really think it's time I stopped talking to him, and let things chill out. Steve and Keane know what their talking about. And I'm so scared to talk to Steve about this, I love him I really do.. and fuck I just I dont know what he'll say and do when we talk.. he might get mad, and upset with me, and their goes our relationship. I'm so scared, and so nervous, and so worried about tomorrow. I... I don't even know how to put how I feel about him to Keane. I mean I can't say I love him, because she'd be like AHHHHH and I guess I'll just have to spill the beans.. and say "I hadn't talked to him in 2 months, and then all of a sudden, Ed and I drove by, I saw them and I just did it really without thinking I'm like "Hey I see you!" and he was like hi, how are you, thats cool TTYL.. and I guess I was just like ok, cool.. and then I thought about it after and I was like fuck what did I just do... i can't change it, but damn.. and I knew in my heart that it was a dumb mistake, beause I had done so good without talking to him.. people said my mood was a little different. I was happier, and then the second I saw him it was different. I know people are gonna bombard me with their questions and their "why'd you do it???" so i guess I should prepare myself, and i guess I'll talk to kim about it... I just know I shouldn't have talked to him... I'm the worst when it comes to letting go... it's just who I am... but in this case Keane and I will find someway to work through it, she knows how it is, she wouldn't let her Ex's go, and they hurt her the most... Jay hasn't hurt me.. I guess their preventing that from happening... So... here goes.
THEN today:
So I sent off my email to Keane and here it is:
So, I handed you the letter, because no one really said anything.. it didn't have all I wanted to say, but just the main points. All in all, since we didn't talk I wanted to know what you thought because I can't tell you what the past 2 days has been like, to sit here and think for hours on end.
After I read the email, i didn't know what to do, I didn't know what to say all I could think about was the fact that I hurt you both. And thats something I never wanted to happen, because you 5 (you, steven, kim, joe, and cindi) are MY WORLD. No ifs ands or buts about that. And I never meant for any of this to happen. I wish now I could take it back. All i could think was about how much this must hurt you, and how much stress I added into your lives. And you don't need any more stress. It made me sick to think of how much stress I added by not really thinking through sending that message. I never wanted to hurt you guys, and I'm so sorry. I feel like such an ass for doing so. I dreamed about it, and it just made things so much worse. I didn't know what to say, how to put in words how bad I felt because after reading your emails I realized how badly i messed up. And I just hope you know how much I love you guys, and how sorry I am. It was a big mistake, and as much of a learning experience it was, I wish we didn't have to go through it. As I said in the letter, I'm fully cutting all ties, it was a Toxic Friendship, that we could all do without. And I know with where Steven's health is, this will lower the stress. I don't want to have to have you 2 worry about me and Jay talking. Beause my friendship with him is done. It was more hell that it was worth. I have never experienced stress like this in my entire life. And I wont tell you all the details, because it's over and done with, I got through today after giving you the note, much more relieved that I got what I wanted to say out there. And I really hope that we can work through this situation, put it in the past, and say goodbye once and for all to j. It was a mistake and I'm really sorry...So... thats pretty much it. I hope to hear from you soon?..
I love you guys... with all my heart.
Sammy
I hope that she and I can talk one on one and set things straight.. otherwise I'm not sure what's gonna happen.. other than that I vame up with a thesis about my relationship with Jay.. I'll post it tomorrow... but I did have a dream last night about him.. I couldn't really sleep, ttyl
So enough drama for now, read that and then I'll post Landscaping pictures tomorrow. Luc you guys!
Sam

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-04-26T19:19:00

2006-04-26T23:19:52Z

Flyleaf such an amazing band.. mhm
yeah if u go to my music myspace, I have part of their song that I sang on there lol.
In other news, I'm excited to go on the feild trip tomorrow!!! lol MCC HERE WE FUCKING COME, while everyone else has to do that retarded reading thing lol. haha im sorry, but that just blows. I love you guys tho, I do.
Well, other than that, I'm bored, I'm tired and I'm going to go watch Mike's movie "Kid's gold: the legend of belltown hill" I'm trying to talk Mr. Nick into letting the drama class watch it, cause well.. there's some interesting acting at times in it.
♥ Sam

Woooowww

2006-04-26T23:12:28Z

Vacations was blast! we chilled, we worked, and we Saran wraped Joes Car. We mostly stayed at Keane's, so now we're switching it up and staying at Kims. Which is cool.I worked all day thursday with Mike Lombardi, (movie mike) he's made another movie, which will be in editing until summer, and then air on cptv in the summer, prolly august. Which is pretty damn cool. He's really great with the kiddies. Also a plus. Well other than that cool shit.
In other news, Keane & Steve recieved a letter from Jay's lawyer. I read it, it's a load of shit. His lawyer is a fucking dumbass. He's an idiot. So Keane went today to gather her shit for Perry. Perry's their lawyer for this case. Jay's fucking lawer is a crock. I don't think J is telling him everything. Well, anyways so thats being handled and then BLAH idk how that's gonna turn out.
Well... hmmm what else can I say... except... LIFE is interesting. Sorta lol... It's good, and bad. Life kinda sucks some days, but then others I'm like, but he's so amazing.
Courtney and I got to spend a lot of time with Keane and Steve, which is always good. We stayed up late watching random shit and what not.
So I worked at Rainbow Center quite a few days over vacayion, and it wasn't really bad. Jason is so cute, I love him. He's gonna be 3 soon. He colored me some pictures, but I can't find them *TEARS* I'll make him color me some more. And Mia is sooo cute, she's 1. And Ozlem's daughter Isabel, is ADOREABLE. She's so cute. Yeah then there's my 3's classroom the twins are really cool, I've begun to tell them apart, and a few of them are really cute like Cass, and Robert. So pretty much things are going well there.
Working at the Nature Center was pretty cool as well, longs days but I got to chill with Mike and Tiffany, which was definately kick ass. The kids were pretty good, so we overall had good days. I forgot how much I missed Mike, I gave him my cell number, so he could call me when his next movie was going to be on TV. I'm excited!
Kim still hasn't paid me... that ho I'll have to jack her for my check later.
So, my dad sucks and wont let me get a Jeep Grand Cherokee, so he sucks right now lol. He's in the dog house.
I got to go shopping today with Jen, it was nice to get out and shop. I haven't shopped in a while. I ofcourse wore my husband's clothes cause well... I really had no choice. So I wore all John Deere, it was funny. I enjoyed it
SBC came and fixed the computer, and the guy was sooo chill. He and I talked about hoe I could sneak ppl into the basement through the window above the computer. It was funny. He has a myspace, cause he's like 20 something. It was cool, we chilled for a little and talked, swapped stories, he's married. We talked about beeing teens and parents. He lived with his Grandmother, so we could relate lol. It was definately cool, he was one of the more nice SBC people I have dealt with.
So the Jay situation, is interesting. We had this bon fire in the fire pit over vacation, and it was just me and someone else for a few minutes, and we talked about it. I guess they overheard someone talking about how Steve made HUGE purchases with the greenman card. So now I really am questioning Jay's credibility.. he could be telling the truth. I mean as much as I love Steve, but they wouldn't make something like that up. So now I'm like hmmm that's odd... now I don't know where I stand in this situation. I LOVE STEVE, I really really do. He's my uncle, my husband, some days my best friend... but after hearing this, i question his credibility... I know I shouldn't but.... It just made me think.. a lot.
The fire was damn kick ass cause we had tiki torch fluid so we just poured that over it and it like blew into flames, and then we exploded a lighter in it. And my mini bottle of skyy spiced. It wasnt very good so eww, but I drank half and said goodbye to my bottle and threw it in. It blew up. It was cool. We chilled out there till 12, and then brought Kenny home, chilled more, watched fear factor till 4am, and then went to bed, and got up for work at 9 lol. The rest of the weekend was semi madness, we went grocery shopping. JUST THE TEENAGERS, and this fuckin lady bitched us out. She was a customer, and bitched us out for Kenny and Robby sitting in me and courtney's carts. She was like "aren't you two a little too old to be sitting in the cariages?" they were like not really.. and we're standing in the deli line, not doing anything wrong, and she just went off on Courtney saying how we werent enducated. How she was going to follow us home and tell our parents, and what rediculous people we were. The people around her were like "YOU'RE NOT THEIR MOTHER LEAVE THEM ALONE" and "You're incredibly out of line" The girls behind us had their 2 kids in the carriages jumping around and they were like "if she comes up to you in the store, let us know. we'll take care of it." She went off on us for like 15 minutes, and then left the Deli area. Which ruined our plan. We were all gonna shout BINGO when they called our number but then we were all so pissed off. So we finished up and went back, and made Burgers and Dogs. That was bon fire night...
Well, more later lol. I've got more to say, but other things to do.
♥ Sam

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-04-09T22:07:00

2006-04-10T02:11:47Z

Okay, so friday was pretty dull and boring. we slept at kims house.. nuff sed.

Saturday- prolly the funnest day. I had my staff meeting at 12.. and I found out I'm working with Mike Lombardi (katie im working with mike MOVIE MIKE lol) its a fucking small world.. we';re pretty much fucking family im like holy shit. So after that, me and court hang out with kim, then she goes to kennys and we chill at keanes, then kenny n courtney come over, kim goes home leaving the 3 of us alone. we chill, and watch Constantine which scared the shit out of me. Steve comes home and goes straight to bed.. Then Kenny, Courtney and I do Pilates for a half hour, then switch to Carmen Electra's Aerobic Striptease. WHICH ALL 3 OF US DID. HAHAHA I fucking love how kenny will do this kind of stuff with us. An hour of working out, and then dancing lol. Keane came home at 12:15 and we brought kenny home.. then we hung out me n courtney til 2am.. and then we went to bed.. lets say sam didnt really sleep.

Sunday- got up early to go out with my husband (steven)and the kids, Courtney ended up coming. Keane stayed home. We went out to Pep Boys to get parts for the truck, then out to Bolton to let Pepper out cause MJ's on vacation. We played with pepper (dog lol) for a little while, then headed back to my house so Steve could look at the pipe that broke. He's fixing that on Tuesday. Then Courtney and I went out with Kim and Kenny to look at Prom dresses. That was sucky we both found the dress we wanted and they were both $258.00 so.. yeah.. no... and then we came back, I chilled with Steve and we worked on the dump truck. The lights needed to be fixed, and something involving the cable connected to the knob to use the dump part was broken so we worked on that for a while. I wore his clothes home cause mine got dirty. So I have Steve's clothing here lol. Shows how much we really are married..

So Jason is going to Steve's tomorrow.. and Steve's going to be there, to meet him so Jay can return things and take some of his stuff.. I'm really worried about this meeting. Jay can intimidate Steve, and that worries me. I really want Steve to just tell Jay to come at 2pm, and just have me there, and Steve can go to work. I can handle myself when it comes to Jay. I know what needs to be given to him, I dont have a garage key, so it's not like he can get in there. And when it's just he and I, I can talk him in and out of anything. We have that relationship. And he knows how protective I am of Steve.. He and I had that talk and he's knows he was wrong with what he said about the house, and I think he realizes that so he's knows I'll kill him if he tries to steal any other shit. But I guess Jay's coming around 11ish, and I'm like noooo I'm still in school. I hope things change and they call me to be there. I doubt it'll happen tho. Well anyways, that's what's going on now... so lol.. I'm off to do things & change my myspace layout lol.
♥ Sam

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-04-05T20:20:00

2006-04-06T00:29:32Z

hmmm.. i have some quality stories to tell.. but that will come at a later time.. cause I really dont feel like going there at the moment... my mood is pretty good right now.. so lets not ruin it.. I feel the need to change my background to Forbidden. She's so pretty.. but Krystal is so pretty so now I dont know lol.

Anyways.. there have been talks about cape cod.. and I'm a tad bit annoyed with where we are staying. I understand the pool thing.. cause then we dont have to watch the kids, and take them to the beach.. but me and courtney not getting a room.. is just bad... I dont wanna sleep on a floor.. a couch maybe.. a floor i better not.. with our bad backs ill fucking kill someone. This years plowing has my back shot, and I'm not gonna fuck it up even more. So yeah needless to say, it's been a touchy subject.. they're all like well we are paying so too bad.. I'm like HEY I PUT IN FUCKIN 100 BUCKS PLUS FOR YOUR GROCERIES.. which some we really dont need (ie cat food.... to prank me with.. and other items..) I mean if thats what my money goes towards ( perviously said items) then fuck them, they're not getting shit from me.. I mean it's not like dad gives me the 100, he takes it from my bank and gives it to me to give kim and steve and all them. So yeah... but anyways... it's just errrrrr... if i have to i will sleep in the fucking van..

well in other news.. we pranks steve a few times on April fools day.. 1st was putting bulk items in his bed.. he goes bulk shopping so keane and cindi and I decided since they were just sitting in the kitchen, to put them in his bed and on his side of the room. Then we stacked all the bulk canned items in one cabinet, that he uses all the time. lol that was pretty fun.. Keane and I got a good laugh everytime someone went in there.. it looked liked all they had was chicken broth, string beans and hot chocolate. So that went well.. then yeah I drove a lot lol. Mainly the Van cause my Sublime CD is in there and yeah.. And then i drove cindi's car a lot. lol...

Well, I'll leave you with my kick ass sublime song.

"New Song"

I heard that payback's a mother fuckin' bitch
But I won't stress and I won't switch
And I would not take my life
Glory please, my God, the only thing on my mind
Takes up all of my time,
And I said, ooh!

Running from a gun
Or some brain that ways a ton
And my God, it hurts to get so low
Searchin' through the cars
Cold, still searchin' through the night
I think I will run, to you, but I refuse to fuss and fight

And God may find a reason
Well I'm sure you'll find a rhyme
Because it takes up nearly all my time
He who stands for freedom
God knows I've got the number
But maybe I just use too much

I was sitting in that bar
I'm sittin' in that stolen car
Cold, still rollin' down the boulevard
Saw you with a gleam
And the microphone scene

'Think I will run, to you
But I know I won't live for me
Cause I know God's got both, the reason and the rhyme
Please tell me, why he takes up all my time
I've been drinking, just like you
And baby, you've got something I can use

Payback's a mother fuckin' blast
But I won't stress and I won't blast
And I would not take my life
Glory please, my God, comin' from heaven above
Takes up all of my time
And I said

"Why must I feel like that"
Running from a gun
And some brain that ways a ton
You know, I did that line for Flava' Flave

But, all the D.J.'s do it
All the D.J.'s use it
I would run, I would switch
But I wanna be the same

And I know I'll find a reason
'Cause I always bust a rhyme
Because it takes up nearly all my time
The "T" hear stands for treason
The "D" hear stands for dove

And maybe I just use too,
Maybe I'm just used too much.

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-03-23T22:07:00

2006-03-24T03:08:36Z

You Are 61% Addicted to Love

Might as well face it, you're very addicted to love.
But you're not really getting the deep love you seek.
Short lived, dramatic relationships are more your style.
Let go of needing someone, and you may find someone you actually want.

Are You Addicted to Love?

How You Life Your Life

You have a good sense of self control and hate to show weakness.
You're laid back and chill, but sometimes you care too much about what others think.
You tend to have one best friend you hang with, as opposed to many aquaintences.
Some of your past dreams have disappointed you, but you don't let it get you down.

How You Are In Love

You fall in love quickly and easily. And very often.
You tend to take more than give in relationships.
You tend to get very attached when you're with someone. You want to see your love all the time.
You love your partner unconditionally and don't try to make them change.
You stay in love for a long time, even if you aren't loved back. When you fall, you fall hard.

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-03-23T18:56:00

2006-03-24T00:01:47Z

WAYYYY SICKER THAN YESTURDAY.. llike ii had noo voice today. it was rediculous.. so my dad found out cause well yeah.. no voice lol. he was kinda upset.. i hope he doesnt keep me home tomorrow.i hope i can pretend that I'm better so i can go to Keane's house. Well... Melissa's bringing me Sudafed Nighttime so we can be all loopy together haha what good shit. So yeah.. that'll be funny.
So I've come to terms with what I might have to do... I might have to let him go.. but I'm gonna have to be okay with that. Things with him have gotten worse.. and because I love Keane and Steve.. I realize I may just have to let go. I mean dont get me wrong.. J was my solid rock.. he was always there to talk when I needed someone who wouldnt be biast, who would be straight up honest with me. He was that. Yeah it's gonna be hard not to call him when I have a huge problem.. but if it comes down to the point where I have to let him go because things have gotten EVEN worse with Keane and Steve then I will. I'm not gonna ruin my relationship with them because of Jay. The man is amazing he really is.. but right now whatever's going on in his head is not right. And it's killing a lot of shit with Steve. Thats supposed to be his best friend.. your best friend doesnt fuck you over like that.. they just dont....
Well, I'm gonna go pass out or something.
Sam

Hardest part of holdin on is letting go

2006-03-23T00:44:37Z

The Plus Side of Today:
*No Raposo, which means I didnt have to explain why I wasnt there last night for the concert
* People were nice to me cause I was sick
* I didn't have Geometry
*I made it through the day
*I did Busy Buddies
*I made meghan's make up pretty
*I got my pay check today
*People seemed to have worse days then me..
*No one asked me what was wrong today. I enjoyed that.
*No one asked about Signor
*I get my hair cut on Saturday yay!

The Down Sides of Today:
*I'm sick
* I have NOOO VOICE
*I had to work today
*I got woken up at 12am by Uncle Steve.. that silly susan.. atleast he made me laugh
*It was really cold out
*My dad's being an ass hole
*I have a geometry test tomorrow im gonna fail
*I have no motivation for anything
*I have to work Saturday after Chrissy cuts my hair
* Signor hasn't returned my calls.. I have to talk to him about Christina...
*I didn't really eat at all today... my breakfast was OJ, my lunch was a few bites of mashed potatos and Water.. dinner made me feel sick..
*I can't tell my dad I'm sick cause I'll get a lecture on how i shouldnt have gone to keane and steves and helped them because they were all sick.
*MY ENTIRE body aches.. I feel like I just went plowing for 15 hours.

I should stop bitching... but you know.. I am the queen of bitching...
yeah I'm gonna go cry to POD, and then watch Sex & The city.. one tree hill... carlos mencia then pass the fuck out.
*Peace bitches*
Sam

Kicking

2006-03-22T01:04:28Z

I may still be alive and Kicking.. but I have no voice.. And now I'm just stressed out to the max... Jay and Steve issues have gotten MUCH WORSE. To the point where they're changing their phone number and locks. I don't know what the hell Carl and Greg are doing to influence him, or what the hell is going on in that head of his, but he better snap out of it real soon before they end up in a full on legal battle. And in that case NO ONE REALLY WINS. Their friendship is shot, and they've asked me to cut off all association with him.. that's so hard because... I like him. They know that,and he's been there for me more times than you will all ever know. He's listened to me, he's gotten me through that whole GIO BULL SHIT. He got me out of getting up and walking out of my house after my dad and I fought. He's talked me out of that numerous times. He's been a solid rock that doesn't change his oppinons for anyone. He's straight up with me when we talk, he's honest, and at times he can be an ass hole. BUT at this point he and I have built this trust relationship to the point where it's not like Oh so what's going on with Steven today. It's more like, are you okay? Are things with your dad resolved? Did you try this, that and the other thing? Well, what do you feel like doing about the situation? Or when we were in the Gio thing.. You can do much better than that. You're better than him. He's a fag just ignore him he obviously likes guys if he's gonna be an ass hole to you. Dont worry you dont need him to be happy.
He was just a person who I could pretty much pour everything out to, who wasn't obligated to be like AWW HONEY IM SORRY.. Like the rest of my family would do. Or he wasn't obligated to fix the problem or give me any avice.. So the truth is I got most of my self confidence from him. And just him being a reassuring person. Someone solid, who gave his honest to god oppinion. That's all I ever wanted, was to have this person I could call or text who could give me honest advice and opinions, not because they were obligated to say something but because they chose to say something. He was that. And now that's being taken away from me. As much as I love Keane, Steve and All of them. I truthfully don't want to cut my ties off... because we were in the middle of working out Dad issuses and talking and he was helping me get through fights with him. I would sit and cry on the phone with him about how much shit my father made me feel like. I can't cry to Kim because I've thrown enough of my shit on her. SHe's got much more of her own to deal with. So he was just.. there... But I guess because I love Keane and Steve.. I'm cutting the ties.. I can't believe I'm saying this but.. I'm cutting them.... as much as thats going to break me.. Here it goes..
*The secret is out..*
Sam

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-03-14T22:20:00

2006-03-15T03:39:39Z

I have Paint Shop Pro X for 29 more days, if you want something SPEAK NOW OR FOREVER HOLD YOUR PEACE!! and I downloaded kick ass brushes, so everything I make is incredibly pretty. Ask Katie, I made her icons and Jensen Ackles stuff. lol... well, anyways... I suppose I should talk about my weekend.
Friday we babysat at Kim's house.. we cleaned most of the house. The kids were easy as hell to take care of. Then we ended up sleeping there.. in the morning we had a long talk about things. Like Keane, Steve, Jay, our relatoinship with Kim. I finally told her that stuff about me loosing some trust in her. I had to get it out there, so I finally ended up say, "You know when you told keane Jay had been talking to me about things I was pretty upset. Because he confided in me, and trusted me with this stuff, and you just went and told her when I said not to." She comes back with, well how do you think they would have worked things out? and I said "JASON AND I WERE WORKING ON THAT! He just didnt know who to approach, how to do it.. when to do it. He needed advice and I was willing AND ABLE to give it to him." Kim replies, well you know he shouldn't have because you're only 16 and thats a lot for someone to handle. It's his problems and they should deal with them. I snap back, "NO that's not right, if someone I know is in this situation I'm the first to help and say, what can we do to make things happen and better. And in this case, I got them all talking. I pushed Jay to see Keane, I watched her kids for her and sent her out. I told Jay to approach her first, so he didn't scare off Steve. I LISTENED, I GAVE THE ADVICE, I WAS THE ONE WHO ORGANIZED EVERYTHING!" Kim clamly says, And you did a great job. You really did, and it was a good thing to do. But you know, I know you have a crush on Jay and I think that that is clouding your judgemnt. I think that you don't see everything for what it's worth.
Well, let me tell you.. I see every goddamn flaw in that man. But she doesn't know him like Courtney and I do. He's not the ass hole people think he is. He's caring, he's funny, he's pretty good with the advice, he listens, he speaks openly, he stoped drinking, and he has a good heart. He's got flaws, No one is damn perfect, and I'm not saying he's perfect. He's nearly... but those just out weigh the smoking, the swearing, the pretty random comments, the hard ass attitude, the lying (at times), and this money issue with Steven... Personaly, I've heard both side.. Both parties were pretty involved, so there's no right or wrong. But Steve has a huge sensible head, nad should have known better than to go into business with Slappy. Jay should have stopped this money issue before Steve racked up this big tab... everyone was a part of this.. but I think that Jay deserves his money, and Keane deserves the money thats owed from both of them to her.
Saturday afternoon after this huge conversation we went and bought stuff for Bill (our frog.. yes Becky he is still alive.. remember courtney calling u and asking about frogs and what not a long asss time ago?? this is the frog..) Bill is living the life! We bought him a background, a water bowl to swim around in, mulch for the ground, rocks, neat little thingys, and a shit load of crickets to eat. Lets say for 30 Dollars and change, Bill is living the fucking life!
Sat Night - Courtney ended up hanging out with Kenny, and I hung out with the family. We slept at Keane's in Keara's room cause CINDI TOOK MY DAMN BED! And me and Courtney snuggled up in the comfy bed with... and this is pathetic.. Aladan Movies and random kids DVDS.
Sunday, THE DAY FROM HELL! Dad went to the emergency room at 8:30am.. I didn't get a phone call.. so when I woke up at 10am, I called my house, naturally, like I do every morning I'm not home. Dad doesn't answer I figure he's out.. So I call back at 10:30.. still no answer.. At 10:45 I call Kim.. I ask her where my dad is.. she says "ummm I'm not supposed to tell you.. but he checked himself into the hospital." I flip out.. WHY DIDNT HE CALL ME??? she says, "He didn't want you worried.." oh like calling my house and not knowing where he is, isn't gonna make me worry. So the day goes on and we get phone calls, it's him checking in.. I set up my new computer with Courtney and Ed comes over cause I can't get the damn internet to work. So that gets fixed and then Dad finally comes home at like 5:30. Kim brings dinner over, and we eat.. watch TV and then Courtney leaves at 8...
What a weekend.. Drama Full, PSYCHOTICNESS TO LIEK THE MAX!!!! off to watch miami ink
♥ Sam

FRIENDS ONLY BITCHES

2006-03-09T23:49:26Z

Comment to be considered

PLOWING MARCH 2ND 2006

2006-03-03T01:52:39Z

Just got back from plowing, took these pictures lol.

So pretty much, I got home, I ate and then it began. I shoveled our driveway 5 times. I texted steve and keane. Steve had to start without me cause he had to bring the kids cause daycare was closed and keane wasnt home. So I waited till 5:21 when keane came and picked me up. Steve had come home, he had only done the condos. We hung out, had soup and then at 6:15 we suited up and headed out. We went and did Laura and Ozlem's house first. That took us about till 7 to finish. Then we headed to the 2nd monster... The day care. Rainbow center is a bitch to complete, so that took us a full hour. I used the snow throwers the entire time cause it's a little faster than shoveling. So he sent me up with the snow thrower and I was all set. Shoveled the stairs and we headed back to my house. My dad was an ass hole and said I couldn't stay out past 8:00. Which sucked cause Steve's gonna be out till 12 now cause its just him. Pluse I'm his security, I keep him awake and entertained, and I get him done faster cause while he's plowing I breeze through walkways shoveling or snowblowing... what happens if he gets stuck up at the condos???? It's just him.. omg i pray that doesnt happen. ANyways mind off of it... We got to my house, plowed the apron, then we both got out and shoveled the rest of it. I huged and kissed him goodbye and jumped straight into the shower... Well, thats pretty much it.. My back's already killing me from shoveling earlier, and that snow thrower is not light... And it's not easy to push through piles of snow.. it is however and work out and a half.
♥ Sam

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-02-28T22:36:00

2006-03-01T03:50:12Z

Open iTunes/iPod or Windows Media Player to answer the following.

Go to your library.

Answer, no matter how embarrasing it is.

How many songs? 401

Sort by artist
First artist: 06-weezer
Last artist: Yellowcard

Sort by song title:
First Song: Breathe No More (Evanescence)
Last Song: Tainted Love (PCD)

Sort by time:
Shortest Song: Cat In The Hat (10sec)
Longest Song: Dane Cook Retaliation (52mins)

Sort by album:
First Album: 1 Tree Hill
Last Album: WWE Desire

First song that comes up on Shuffle: "Ciggarettes" Fort Minor

How many songs come up when you search for "sex"? 0

How many songs come up when you search for "death"? 3

How many songs come up when you search for "love"? 11

How many songs come up when you search for "you"? 5

How many songs come up when you search for "why"? 7

FUUUCK

2006-03-01T03:19:23Z

listening to Disintegration, and crying my eyes out, because I dont know where this road is going to take all of us. I lost trust in one person I thought I could seriously trust for the rest of my life. Steve finally talked to me about things, and I'm scared for them. Jay is in a bind, and I feel for him as well. Anthony has Pnumonia, and so does Uncle Joe's dad.
Things in my world just don't seem to stop crashing down, and I don't know where else to go.
I mean, Jay and I talked about my dad, and he agreed that it was rediculous how things were put to me. I'm 16 I shouldn't have to work my ass off to support him. Jay confided in me, and I wish that we could continue to talk about things, I feel like I was the only person he could really talk to freely. Slappy screwed us all over. I miss Courtney. I miss being able to go for walks at 2am, chillin freely at keanes house.
I miss pranking Uncle Steve, we got him so bad.. putting those little pices from a hole puncher in his air vents in the Subaru so when he turned the car on, all those tiny round pieces of paper flew out at him. We sat in Cindi's car and got front row seats, and then got terrorized.
I miss pillowfighting and pouring ice down Steve's back.
I miss the phone calls from j.
I miss us talking about everything an anything
I miss looking at him with Seth in his arms.
I miss Keane... she's so amazing
I can't believe I'm saying this but.. I MISS THE KIDS. No matter how loud and crazy they are, and the high pitched screeching, and tantrums.
I miss coloring with them
I miss having the house to myself once in a while.
Hell I miss doing their dishes and laundry
I miss being called the 2nd wife
I miss getting up at 10 or 12
Miss going to bed at 4 or 5
I miss the office
I miss Cindi
I miss headbanging, and playing "drums" in the office with Greenman pens.
I miss Mr. Fred and the big ass dog Midnight sleeping in my bed with me.
I miss my designated blanket
I miss texting Steve
I miss Texting Jay
I miss my relationship with Kim, its not where it used to be
I miss the Nursery.
Most important.. I MISS MY MOM....
And last, I miss those few moments over vacation where I was actually happy with my life.

I'm sorry.....

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-02-16T15:01:00

2006-02-16T20:06:03Z

So yeah, Valentine's Day was boring, but on the plus side Gio gave me Belgian chocolates. So yeah Sam was all hopped up on the chocolate..
Today was bitchy... to say the least, Sams a PMSd out bitch so watch yourselves lol. Hmm whatelse to say... well, I'll be posting pictures soon cause im so sick nasty like that.. but for right now, i'll leave you with some random shit:
Uncle Steve... Plowing lol.
Partying it up at the L'Oreal Store.
Up in the Greenman Office.
Sam & Gina are Dumbasses
Enough said.
That one's for Becky lol MHS Idol last year
♥ Sam

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-02-13T20:30:00

2006-02-14T01:31:58Z

So yeah, my weekend was WAYYY better than everyone elses.. HAHA U ALL HAD TO GO TO SCHOOL TODAY.. well, if you're in CT you did. I took the day off with Courtney so we could work some more with Steve. So here's what went down.
Friday- Jason came over, while no one was home, and I chilled with him. He confided in me so much shit, that I honestly didn't know what to do or say. He was upset that no one could get ahold of Steve, and that there was no effort from Steve to prepare for the Blizzard. He was flipping out. and then, he told me some other stuff, that I can't say here, if you know me well enough I'll prolly talk to you about it in school. But it's sooo confidential, I really wasn't even supposed to tell Courtney. So then, he was like I'm waiting here for Steven until he gets home, cause this is fucking rediculous. I agreed, and then he had to run an errand quick fast, so we just ended up talking on the phone quite a few times. I felt so bad, because he was so upset. You know, Steve is a great man, but I don't know where his head really is. I honestly dont, and neither does Jay... it's not good at all... So finally we went out to the store, and Steve came home, so I told Jay to come over, and he did. When I walked in the door and saw Jay OMG OMFUCKINGGOD... He was holding Seth and I just wanted to cry. I, omg, i have a picture, and courtney has like 2. It was so amazing he just looked PERFECT holding and playing with Seth. I was wearing Jay's snow suit, cause it was cold, but he made me give it back. Then he and Steve went outside to talk.. we tried to listen, but we really couldn't hear anything.

Fri night Sat morn- Kenny chilled with all of the fam and what not, it was cool. During the day Saturday, we worked at the Nature Center, and then went to the Mall with the kids. I shoped a little more for Meghan, which didn't really work that much, cause I was out of money in like the first half hour. So, then we came back to Keanes where Kenny came over, and we chilled with Cindi Steve, Roby, and Keane. We watched Wedding Crashers, and it started to snow... Cindi and Robby, and Kenny went home, Court and I went for a walk, and wrote names in the snow, went back and set our alarms for 4:30am. At this point it was atleast 2am. So we never wokeup, Steve left at 4:30 without us, but came back ant got us around 9am. Thats when we started plowing.

Sunday Plowing - First we hit up Jay's neighbor, got that done pretty fast, and then we headed out to Hillside Condos in New Britian. That was the bitch of all bitches. We got stuck at least 5 times, and it took us 3 hours to get that site done... we went home and rested. Round 3 (for Steve) Round 2 for us, we went out With Christopher, his friend. WHO REMINDED ME N COURT OF JAY so very much. And since Jay couldn't be there, cause well, he has another Job. So, we plow out like 3 or 4 sites before heading out to Hooters for dinner. It's now after 8pm. We leave Hooters after eating wings, and chilling, and head out to a few more sites. We hit those, and then take Chris home. We approve of him by the way. He's like our stand in for when Jay can't be there. He says almost the exact things.. o n by the way, I guess Jay has a twin sister Jessica, and according to Chris she's hot... nice.. lol. Chris is cute, and he's 26.. he went to HS with Jay. ANyways, we bring him home, then head out to do a few more sites... Rainbow Center, and Ozlem's house and what not.. We finish those and then begin to travel back to the Beast. (condos) it's now 11:30 maybe 12am. We start going up the hill and realize now that this guy is completely stuck on the driveway into the condos.. so we can't get in. Steve's ripping mad, cause we've had so many problems with the Residents already that we've all had enough. we just want to finish this off, so we can all go home and sleep. So this guy's stuck and me and Court have now been making up Plowing Remixes to EVERY song we hear on the radio... it was entertaining... So, Steve jumps out and grabs a bucket of Sand to try and get this guy out. It sucks, he comes back like 5 times to get more sand, finally the guy gets his car up farther so we can make it into the parking lot, we get in and try to plow out part of the lot, and we get stuck. Steve spins the wheels, and we just keep slidding around. We can't back up, we can't move forward.. great.. We all jump out and get the sand and shovels and start to shovel and sand out the entire area around the truck.. Steve tries again.. Not working... he's gettin pissed.. So we decide we're all going to push.. the truck weighs 14,000 - 15,000 pounds, not including the equipment in back. But we decide with me, Courtney and one of the residents, we should be able to. Haha, you think we can do it? Steve gets in front and starts it back up again, annd we all get ready.. by the way the resident barely helped us push, basically it was me and court. So we start pushing and he starts moving forward, he starts picking up speed so now we're almost at a running pace, pushing. So we get Steve into a secure spot and we dcide we have to just Back down the entire hill, because this isn't gonna get done. We tried plowing forward but we're in 27imches of snow.. it's not good. so it's now 1am. We try and try to more more snow so steve can plow, and we continue to get stuck, until we see a Town Of NewBritain plow truck. LIFE SAVER. He comes up the hill and immediately helps us move the Residents stuck van. We sand it, and all pile onto the back of the Van, to put more weight on the tires. He goes slow, picks up speed and pulls into a parking spot. Steve backs the truck out into another spot.. We decide to use the Snow Thrower and clean up a bit, and then we end up leaving. It's now 2am. We drive back home and finally get there around 2:45 maybe 3am. Total plow time for all those counting: 17hours.

Monday - I convinced my dad to let me stay, and so we get up at 7am. Send Keara to daycare, chill till atleast 10, then me and Steve head out for the plowing sites. Court wasn't feeling good. So we head out to the Condos, again and quick plow... we get stuck 2wice, and only really need to throw sand down to get out once. Then the tailgate on the back of the dumptruck fell off, again for like the millionth time this weekend, but since it was just me and Steve, I had to hold it up while he went around and locked it. the tailgate weighs 450 pounds. Granted I only held it for almost a minute or 2, I managed to keep it in place, and Steve got it locked. He was so proud of me for being able to hold it. When we let it down and it was all locked he was like Good fucking job sammy, you did so good. So we finished up there, and headed over to my house to make a path for my dad and finish clearing the walkways. So we did that, it was pretty quick, Steve and I left, went to grab lunch and got back at around 1:30 2pmish.

TOTAL PLOWING HOURS FOR THE WEEKEND: 21-22 Hours.

How Sam's feeling, pretty good actually.

I'm off to do my Sand project.

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-02-08T21:55:00

2006-02-09T03:02:48Z

Ground Rules: Name your Top 20 List Of Lust, in no particular order. Your neighbor or grade school teacher doesn't count. The list can be male, female or mixed. They can be real life celebrities or characters in a movie or TV show. For example, you might want to gag Mariska Hargitay, while still lusting after Butchy McFabulous Olivia Benson. Tag 5 people on your flist to do this meme.

1) Jason

2) Ami James

3) Jeff Hardy

4) Chad Michael Murray

5) Chris Nunez

6) Jenna Jameson (come on guys she's just hot)

7) Danny ( RW Austin)

8) Chris (Meghan Knows wich one)

9) Dave Navarro

10) Jullian McMahon

11) Bam Margera

12) Ville Valo

13) Carmella DeCesare

14) Billy Idol (the man looks damn good okay?)

15) Chester (Linkin Park)

16) Mike Shinoda

17) Brady Corbert

18) Paris Hilton (once again, she's hot)

19) James Lafferty

20) Travis Barker

I TAG

hollowme serenity_fayt thesongbegins locodiablogato

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-01-30T12:33:00

2006-01-30T17:34:23Z

Saturday night was so fuckin crazy! Me and Courtney drove so much!!! Steve just let us take the car out, and "practice" K turns and what not.. ofcourse he knew we drove around town. No man is that stupid. So it was just me, Courtney and the Subaru at fuckin 12am. We drove down Barstow, and all those side streets, then I let her drive, and we sped up and down the side streets, we switched and I drove the main roads, sped up and down those. Then I let her drive and we just kept switching. Earlier we had moved the Subaru, the Van and Cindi's car. I wore Jay's Marlboro Reds jacket that he left in the truck cause I was so fuckin cold. Me and Courtney drove, literaly for 45 minutes, maybe an hour. Keane was in bed, and Steve didn't care. We called and asked if he wasnted us back, and he was like yeah I guess. So I drove back, and we chilled in the house. Earlier we had Kenny and Paul over with Keane, Cindi, Steve, Joe and Kim. We all hung out, then watched Carlos Mencia. We laughed our asses off for 2 hours, and then everyone left and thats when we went driving. It was fuckin crazy. Ealier that day we had taken the Kids to Great Escape for a birthday party, where me and Courtney took pictures, and yeah that was really random... we played games, got free tokens and what not. It was fun.. Friday night Kim kicked our asses in Dominos.. well first I kicked ass in the first round, and then my gloating came and bit me in the ass. So, I drove her around and what not, and then drove back to Kims. We chilled there, and watched TV, and then went to bed.
So this big ass storm, not coming.. it's all gonna be rain, which means no work for Sam & Steven. *tear tear* Oh well, maybe next weekend. In any case, I'm off to listen to music, and watch Miami Ink.. there's some marathon on, and since there's nothing else on, I might as well watch that.... later.
*Sam*

Holy Mother O Llamas

2006-01-24T01:07:46Z

I'm so fucking sore it's not even funny. I worked my ass off today. It was just me and Steve in the dump truck, plowing, shoveling and sanding from 10am to 2pm. 4 hours of shoveling. The first site, was easy. He plowed, I shoveled for like 10 minutes. Then we got back in the truck and went to New Britian, it was semi downhill for me from there. The condo's kicked my ass, there was so much to do, and it was so heavy. My arms hurt. But they got better as I went through the other sites. We blasted through the next few sites, and then hit back home to Hartford where we did Fink's office and a few other places. Then the apron of Jay's driveway. Jay was sick. He got "the plague" from Anthony. EVERYONE in his house got it. Which sucked. Me and Steve messed with him, we were texting him, and we're like heard u have the plague, we just plowed the apron of ur driveway. He goes "Thanx, I'm gonna go die now." So steve goes, do it in a corner and quietly. Which confused him. He has a fever of 103, and he goes, "WHAT?" and we're like damn that fever fried ur brain cells. Go to bed. So then we plowed and shoveled a lot more, and then finally came home. Sam will now be quite a few dollars richer by 12pm tomorrow when Unlce Steve picks her up. lol he's picking me up from school tomorrow so he can pay me, and cause my daddy has a doc appointment. So anyways, I'm gonna go watch Charmed, and Ice my entire body.. and then Idk, sit in the massage chair... Later
Sam

xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-01-21T00:02:00

2006-01-21T05:05:00Z

So yeah... life is interesting.. to say the least... well, anyways.. thats all i have to say.. not that anyone ever comments or reads my journal.. i fucking read urs.. god... and most times I comment..... *eye roll* whatever..

WORK WORK WORKKKK

2006-01-17T22:16:05Z

okay lets start with Saturday.. So it was pouring outside and then it switched to Hail... that was fun.. me and courtney went outside and caught hail stons, took pictures and even a video. It was funny. So in the time we were sleeping it must have switched over to snow.. So Jason shows up in the morning, and I decide to go get Sand with him, so when they plow they have sand to put down. Well Courtney's asleep, Keane is on the Couch with 3 kids and I'm tearing my hair out. So we get in the truck.. we talk about shit.. how I don't have a boyfriend, how Gina is hot, and NOT legal... and what not.. We joke around, get the sand and he takes me back. Along the drive he tells me Anthony's sick. He's throwing up and shit.. I think ooo man, he's got what we all had like a month ago. Oh shit.. so I'm like uhhh give him Gatorade, flat gingerale, and not too much food. Lots of Sleep needed as well. He nods, and we continue talking.. So he takes me back to Keane, and it was a nice 10 minute getaway.. just enough to get me away from the screaming children. Me and Him talk to Steve, who has decided to take me.. AND ONLY ME, (cause courtney was gonna be with kenny)plowing later on.. Granted, it's sunday.. it was fucking cold. But im like HELL FUCKING YEAH PLOWING WITH STEVE!!! So then me and Keane go out, leave the kids with Courtney, go shopping quick... come back and play dominos.. I end up leaving during dominos to go to work with Steve. Along the way to New Britain, our first site.. we stop to get hot cocoa, and coffee for the long night we have ahead of us. Well.. we discover, that the sand has now frozen due to the fact that its.. well 10 degrees out.. and it's only 5pm. So, we're in this store, and the lady checks out how much we filled up gas and what not.. and she realizes we have the dump truck. So she asks, "goin plowing?" and steve says yes.. and then she goes, "And I guess you're along for the ride?" and I go NOPE and Steve says, No I'm puttin her to work. And the lady smiles. I love how people think that I'm such a scrawny girl, that I can't be plowing.. lol. So we get back in the truck after dumping ice melt all over the snow. We head over to New Britian, where we start plowing the condos. I jump out, pour ice melt on stairs, walkways, and then star shoveling.. It takes us about an hour maybe hour and a half to finish that entire site.. It's huge. So we drive back to Hartford, where we discover the ice has taken over the sand yet again. So we spend time chopping up sand and then Steve just shovels it out of the truck onto the driveway for a few hartford hopital sites. Now the temperature has DROPPED more.. we plow out a few places around there, including DR. Finks office.. and by now we've been plowing for 2 hours. Our net trip is the Rainbow Center for Kids.. Aunt Cindi works there, it's a day care.. so we plow them out.. then start shoveling and pouring sand and ice melt. Halfway through, my feet are frozen, my hands are cold, and the wind is WHIPING. Well, isn't this a great time for Sam to have to Pee? I think so... so thank god Oslem was there, I think I would have DIED. Once thats over, i come back out, we jump in the truck, plow them out a little more and then go pick up the pizza.. Total plowing time atleast 3 1/2 hours. We get back to the house at 8:40.. I immediately am told to get in the shower because I'm so fucking cold. So, I shower, and what not.. come back out... Move a few cars and then we play dominos.. At this point, from all the shoveling, my right hand is shaking.. It still is today.. I'll laugh if it's still shaking tomorrow... Well, in any case Steve and I enjoyed ourselves.. We listened to Sublime.. Weezer, and Cascada. We laughed, we froze, we had fun. AND We got him done much faster than he would have if it was just him. So yeah, all in all I would say we definately did well..
Well, here's an interesting fact... Yesturday the USA Had Opperation Desert Storm commence in 1991. It was the first Day of Desert Storm in Saudi Arabia.
OFF TO WATCH 24 YAYAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!
*SAM*

IF U ALL DONT FILL THIS OUT ILL KILL YOU

2006-01-11T20:19:06Z

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xo_thirteen_ox @ 2006-01-09T19:03:00

2006-01-10T00:04:57Z

IM GETTIN THIS BITCH TOMORROW!!!!! AHHH

I CANT FUCKING WAIT!!! SEXXXXYYYYY????

I THINK SO!!!!!!